all worthwhile??

a long holiday is very much needed by me, 7 days is quite enoughlah kot...
after a long exhausting, hectic and tiring 3 weeks of the school, this CNY rest is a bliss...eventhough i did bring some school work home, ( i will start that on wednesday) but the 1st 4 days, i just want to lepak with my heroes..no matter how and what they do to make me terjerit2, but it's all WORTHWHILE when i see you smile at me, hug me and kiss me..



talking about school...

...and this is not even a month after the school reopens, and oh me oh mine, the school admin is crazzzyyyyyy...i mean they really are ..so many new rules, so many things that just make me NOT to stay there much longer...you cant do this, cant do that, must do this and must do that, and i kindna feel that i am working at a military school or something like that...and on top of that, i have to act like a hypocrite in front of 'YOU' ma'am, and i dont like that, i dont to be all smiling and laughing at your jokes and story, but inside feels like i want to just scream on top of my lung at you and say"STOP TREATING US AS IF WE ARE BLOODY STUPID PPL!!!"...'stoping threating to send us memos, if we dont want to obey all your silly new can&cant do's nad don'ts- as if we have done things that is so bloody serious-like burn the school down or something like that"...'stop treating us as if we have been in the edu system YESTERDAY!!!"....you only see and you want to see,only want to hear what u want to hear, you dont really listen what you should have been listening...never really appreciate what we have done, you put all your energy to find mistakes in people...and according to you, just in the name of perfection, and in the motto of "saya yang menurut perintah"... wtf!!
HELLO!!!as if you are soo bloody perfect...you make mistakes tooo ok...
And all this time, you never 'SMILE' 'HUG' or "KISS" me... and that make everything that i have one for YOU... NOT WORTHWHILE, nothing that can justify the time spending or the effort i have put on.Not Yet though..but will it be..ever...???

emo

hmmm...aduh, sungguh emo lah all of the sudden
listening to my Hitz.fm...
they are airing M.Nasir's ever lasting- eye tearing song= Satu hari di Hari Raya...
macam nak ngangis jer dengar lagu nie...
dah 23 hari kite berpuasa...OMG, just realize, tinggal 7 HARI lagi jer dah nak Syawal...how fast time flies...

ENOUGH!!

memanglah tak percaya kat horoscope, haram kan percaya kat benda lain besides ALLAH swt.. even sometimes it does terkena jugak here and there in life...like today's horoscope, in which, let me clarify, i didn't look for it, terjumper by accident... it says "Sagittarius: You finally realize it- you are making someone a priority while they are making you an option " ....waduh-waduh...memang it really terkena kat batang hidunglah...sungguh coincident... inilah kuasa ALLAH...coz sejak semalamlah, i finally realized, after quite sometimes being sooo damn dazed,i have come into a conclusion. So here's to you that someone, i really think..i really should stop terhegeh-hegeh menjaga hati you, should stop let you say and do things that you always do yg made me feel soo sakit... sedangkan you dengan senang hatinyer, berjaya dengan bergaya, made me feels sooo small and and and soo kocik (walaupun my badan is bosar), so cikai, and sometimes sooo silly and soo insignifacant... well, ENOUGH is ENOUGH...it's not only you who have feeling, not only you jer yg knows everything, that there is to know, not only you jer yg been there, done that...not only you jer yg PERFECT...Miss goody two shoes..."the only one yg affectedly good or proper; yg uncommonly good. Maybe just a mite too good and a bit too optimistic and a tad too nice?

hmmm...maybe i should start looking for the book The Devil and Miss Goody-Two Shoes by Charlotte Hughes...