i'm a survivor...am i?

this week is really something...i knew that this job can and will make u fell like u hit rock bottom...but i have never really prepared for it...not until last Monday though...

Forgive, sounds good Forget, I’m not sure I could They say time heals everything But I’m still waiting
I’m through with doubt There’s nothing left for me to figure outI’ve paid a price And I’ll keep paying
I’m not ready to make nice I’m not ready to back downI’m still mad as hell and I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right I probably wouldn’t if I could‘Cause I’m mad as hell Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should
I know you said Can’t you just get over it
It turned my whole world around And I kind of like it
I made my bed and I sleep like a baby With no regrets and I don’t mind sayin’
It’s a sad sad story when a mother will teach her Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they’d write me a letter Sayin’ that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

...and it has been haunting me me since...is that statement really true???...aku memang bodoh ke?...bodoh coz bercekang mata marking their exam paper, tapi only 2 students lulus (lain kali aku timbang kati jer bagi markah...:}),bodoh coz spending time preparing materials for them, but they never bother to do the assignment, bodoh coz spending time, photostating materials for them, but they never thank me, bodoh coz marking their unfinished homework, bodoh coz wasting my time to those who never appreciate it...bodoh coz membazirkan tenaga teaching org yg tak makan dek ajar...should i be feeling this way??? aku dikatakan bodoh???by those who haven't really given the honour to face the changing reallties of the wide open space....