danishaqim...my pride and joy

penat betul lately...my workload are getting heavier day after day...and yg kene tempiasnyer are my children (esp dansh)...kalau lepas marah danish, or beat tangan dia masa dia naughty, i felt sooo menyesal, and then baru i said to myself..."sabarlah sket, dia tu budak lagi"...but sometimes aku dah buat baru terpikir...just cant hold myself from yelling at him if he does things...i know i must try to be more and to have more patience...but-
kalau tgk my childen sleeping...so innocent, so pure...mama feels scared, i'm afraid if i'm not 'using' the right colours and 'painting' the right pictures in ur 'innocent piece of white cloth'...

danish harith...my 1st born, kesian betul mama kat danish. i know it's my fault, i realize, all u want from me is my undevided attention, but darling, i'm sooo sorry, sometimes mama feels sooo tired and i out of no where, i let it out on you. u too were also just baby urself when danial haqim arrived, and u are too young to handle all the new baby thing, and mama&papa may have let u feel left out, but remember darling...u r my 1st born and u have a special place in my heart...

danial haqim...my second double boundle of joy, u are such a surprise to me, as u came unexpectedly,and i am looking forward for all other surprises u that u have for mama&papa.... i can feel that u are such a sensitive soul and manja, and yet have a strong will...kalaulah mama mampu to stay home and be with you two all the time...i would most certainlywill.

some say, that we can devide our love among our children, but mama&papa feel and know that love grows bigger and stronger for all of our children...

mama really hope danish and danial will be the best brothers can be-to each other and for your future siblings..
mama really hope that you two never feel that i am being unfair...
mama really hope that i will always be there for u two...
mama really hope i could be the best mom for both of u [and ur future siblings :)]....