new year resolution

Selamat Tahun Baru Hijrah 1430.
apa azam baru aku, for the 1st time ever, i really need to have a resolution and really do and achieve it, Insyallah.

1st i want to be more patient mother...really, i hope to stop or at least lessen the 'yelling and screaming' at the the heroes of the house and be more 'cold' like their papa, who can 'pretend' that he didnt hear or see the noise and the mess the 2 munchkins have done or sneakingly going to do...

2nd, i hope to lose a lot of weight, or at least i hope to be able to wear my pre-marital kebaya..hahaha, so in order to achieve this, i hope to start jogging in the eves, rather than having my beauty eve nap, i will jog around the block..hmmm..really tough this one...

3rd, i want to cook for the family as often as i can, more than i used to do nowadays, well, nowadays i frequently cook for them as i am at home holidaying, but once the school reopens i really hope to eat out less and less. not just it can save cost, but i want my boys to rasa ayer tangan mama and isteri mereka...

well, enough with these dulu, ada banyak2 pun mcmlah boley buat semua...well, Insayallah, i will try my very best to achieve these very 1st resolution of mine...


on the other note, i have learnt some new vocab too. They are khoja (from the movie Accidental Husband) and hiatus (from papa's fav website Naruta Manga).

crappy gift vs. thoughtful gift

i strongly believe that in giving gift,it's the thought that matter.

thus, to me, the gift that I receive is exactly show how the giver feel about me,

and for me to do the same too,

there's a saying "if you have nothing good to say,

better not say anything at all"

same goes to giving gift...

it does not mean that(to me that is), it's good enough that

people give me gift,

so,

if you have nothing good to give,

better not give anything at all...

i dont mind not receiving any gift,

rather than receiving

a crappy gift...

which means

a gift that clearly stated (underneath of off the wrapping and smile) that

"this gift, i dont want it, so i am giving it to you"

dont get me wrong,

i dont expect big, heavy, expansive gift,

because sometimes, good thing comes in small packages too,

it's not that i am ungrateful,

but what to be grateful for???

i'm pissed and a bit disappointed

it just that, come on, dont give me 'Rejected" stuff...

better not give me anything at all..

"orang memberi, kite merasa"

"Receiving a gift is one of the most gratifying feelings in the world; the delight felt is not directly from receiving an object, or thing of value. A gift is far more important than that, as you are in fact receiving something else, something far more precious than any material possession. Love - it cannot be bought, stolen or demanded but is something that is given freely from the heart to those we adore most…"

-gift come from the heart, not from the hip pocket-

dec update..

it has been a while since my my last update, nothing much happen, just that we had just spent out last 2008 jalan-jalan trip, we ended it by spending 4days and 3 nites at Melaka (Everly Resort Hotel)...a few days before that we spent 5 days at kampung papa-Kluang, as mak udo had kenduri korban there...

our melaka trip went smoothly, went makan2 , jalan2 at Jonker's street and mandi2 kat the pool...

and our Danish Harith will start his play school next year, and after considering a few schools, he will be at Little Caliphs play school

danish trying out his new school uniform...

a lot of changes will happen and a few adjustment will have to be made, insyalllah, we can get through it...

suatu masa

4min12 seconds...
that's all it takes...
to remind me back...
to take me back to those moment...
the moment where this song,
seems to be my only best friend,
the only best friend that truly understand...
understand and kind enough to cry with me,
kind enough to listen to me,
kind enough to be there for me...

Suatu Masa

Bagaimanakan ku mula

Dan apakah kata-kata

Yang indah untuk diabadikan

Tiap wajah berkisah

Tiap madah bererti

Manakah ilhamku

Cahaya di matamu

Senyum di bibirmu

mengukir seribu tanda pertanyaan

Mungkinkah kau jua dalam kerinduan

Di saat begini aku merindukah

Berhelai-helai surat

Terbiar di depanku

Tak dapat aku utuskan

Ku ramas semua

Dan ku buangkan

Jauh dari pandangan

Lalu aku kesal

Ku kumpul semula

Tak dapat ku nyatakan apa yang ku rasa

Jika engkau tahu di dalam hatiku

Mungkinkah kau sahut jeritan batinku

Dengarkanlah panggilanku

Dengarkanlah lagu untukmu

Angin lalu kau sampaikan

Rasa rindu yang membara

Kepadanya

Warna-warna cintaku

Kian pudar bersama

Malam yang gelap gelita

Entahkan kau rasakan

Apa yang aku rasa

Atau kau tak endah

Tapi ku percaya

Semua telah tertulis

Dan niat suciku takkan disiakan

Dan di suatu masa

Di hari yang indah

Ku hulur tanganku

Lalu kau terima